Who I am

I'm one of those lurkers-- standing behind the scene type of people

However, I tend to attract a lot of attention. Why? I do not know.

Maybe it's my long socks with capris, tight pants with no backpockets, or even the colorful socks I wear to school. I've been told many times - why do you wear that? why do you do that? - I hate the way society tells you how you're supposed to wear things. "You know you're not supposed to wear long socks with capris, right? Did you run out of ankle socks?" I just respond with a, "Oh, how'd you know." My face flushes. Yes, I am the type of person that flushes like a crimson rose to these types of comments. I'm super sensitive to what other people say... I remember them, even if you forget. These comments stay within me...

About me-- who am I --

I don't even know who I am. With each moment, I discover myself. What I do, my habits, my thinking. It's like I'm a specimen I'm studying myself. I was born close to the day of Thanksgiving, it might have been a week from or so, up in the northeastern coast of the USA. Amazing. Life. Life is truly amazing in these moments. You cry when you're born, the world rejoices. The world weeps when you die, as you rejoice. Something like that I suppose. Interesting.

As for what I enjoy-- what do I like doing?

For a reserved-ish person, I enjoy crazy things. I'm not into drugs or trivial matters teenagers fuss about lately. Well, I'll admit it. I do think about trivial matters all the time. That's life today. I mean, people are dying from starvation in other areas- worrying about how they'll survive tomorrow - while I'm here thinking about an exam in a week. Science, softball, algebra-- What has happened to the world. We need to be helping eachother survive... I have become part of the dilemma today- and what am I doing about it... -- surviving school, I suppose.

But, I really believe that everything happens for a reason; There'll be a time to come when I discover why things happened, what it proved in the future, and what kind of person I ultimately became. It will be interesting to look back into the past-- the only reminscience I will have to cherish my moments may just be technology today-- cameras, letters, blogs like this, photos, and stuff... I will miss what I have... fighting with my family, (yea, true, I'll miss that) making cookies and brownies, studying homework, not really having major responsibilities, not having to work for anyone besides my parents,...

Anyways, I am real outdoorsy- I like hiking, camping, skiing, horse-back riding, sledding, rock-climbing, bungy-jumping, ahh. yea. I want to do more things- like what they have in the X-games. I like chocolate-- right now, I am like a chocoholic. I eat chocolate everything. I love ice cream as well. Yep, and I definately love cookies. I'm the cookie monster in our house. Our you could say the garbage disposer of food. I eat so much, it's crazy. I should weigh so much more than I do now. It's amazing. (yea, I'm talking of trivial matters)

I'm so random as well. I just say my thoughts as is. I have to think before I speak too.

I like reading, creative writing, and I want to publish a book. I have a lot of ideas- I just don't finish them. I think it's easier to start something than to finish.

The traits I like are

orange/goldish/brownish hair

hazel or blue eyes (green and brown's fine as well.)

The punkish/ neat style. Rebel looking, but neat :)

I like indie/ punkish/ pop music.

Muse, The Afters, The Killers, The Fray, Entice, Howie Day, Jason Mraz, McFly, The Rocket Summer, HelloGoodBye, are just some I like.

I like traveling- traveling is my thing- not like in-country traveling, but traveling to other countries. I love history- & science but I'll talk about that later. - I love learning about other civilizations and historical events. Not memorizing facts, but figuring out how they came to be, their lifestyle, technology, philosophy, and such sorts. Crusades, Genghis Khan, Amazon Warriors, and such interest me. I want to travel to Switzerland, Egypt, Skandinavia; Actually, I just want to travel all around the world. That'll be amazing. Such an adventure. I want to ride in a ship, like they did back in the day, and just live it. Live every moment. Every breath. Every second of the wind brushing against my face. It'll be a revelation. I'll discover myself. I think that's the only way I'll find out who I am. I'm going to see what's around me, figure things out.

I'm not going to get married early either. Maybe 32 would be nice. But before that- uh-uh. I don't see why so many kids want to get married so soon. They're going to live with their "soul-mate" their WHOLE life. That's crazy.

I hate that I think too much about everything. I overreact. Overdramatic. Overstressed. Perfectionist. I can't sleep sometimes because I think too much. I can't sleep with sounds interfering.

My favorite teacher is Mr. Black- Honors world history & literature teacher (He's not my teacher now, I wish he were) He's all the way in Europe. Lucky. I learned/ absorbed like a sponge so much in one year. It's amazing. I still remember things because it connected-- everything connected. Unlike the class I'm in now. Everything's --- separate. We learn through chapters, but they don't relate to eachother. So after every test, I'm forgetting what we learned. Public schools have such a terrible method of teaching.